Pondering the changes.

Last year was pretty good, by all accounts.  As the new year approached it’s not often I’d say that, it’s usually ‘hurrah, let’s sack off that year and bring on the next!’  But last year I had a great job for 7 months in a lovely school, went on a fantastic trip to Australia, I got a dog who is the best thing since sliced bread, I managed to change career finally and I got engaged!

It’s been 2 months since I started my new job.  I like being able to help people and sorting problems out, I like that it is quiet and I have my own office.  I like having a lunch break.  Little things.  There are still a lot of things I can’t do (not allowed yet) or don’t know how to do.  But I’ll learn.  Sometimes there’s not enough to do, which sounds good but actually seems to make time slow down, even though that’s impossible.  Sometimes it is lonely.  I’ve never been great at making small talk and fitting right in with people.  I try and talk but end up spouting nonsense that is boring or too personal or a conversation stopper.

We are 2 weeks into the new year.  There has been a death in the family.  It was expected, but still sad.  Always is.  Someone that has always been a part of my life, gone.  Really she went some time ago, age can take a person and leave the shell intact- more or less.  She will be at peace now with Grandpa.

2 days after this I got a stomach bug and my insides fell out.  Not pleasant.  I didn’t know we could store so much within.  I wondered when it would end.  Luckily it was only for a day, I’m just left feeling tired.  This also appeared to be my birthday present.  It’s not been a great time.  I hope this is not setting the tone for the rest of the year to come.  There is also a lot to look forward to, so I will focus on the positive and keep striving for happy times.